25 June 2007

i have no idea

yeah, it turns out that if you push enter when you finish typing in the title? you post it. just the title. oops.

i'm here. and thinking. that's all. i have a boatload of emails to answer, and i want to answer them, and i need to get up and go somewhere, but in the meantime, i can only bring myself to do the simplest of life things:

i can wash my clothes and hang them on the line and then fold them later.

i can dig little holes and plant the white flowers with the pink centers.

i can sweep the sidewalk.

i can unpack a box (more electrical adaptors).

i can jog, and keep jogging.

i need the concreteness. i have decisions to make about career paths and countries, but my head goes round and round them, and ends up nowhere.

conversation:
[3:55:05 AM] t says: you are smart. you will find a way
[3:55:22 AM] m says: sometimes smart only makes you overthink

(those times are wrong. my computer is still on liberia time. which should tell me one thing, at least.)

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